This is a great lesson from Lama Shenpen: Summary: How meditation changes the 'patterns' because
you are not investing in beliefs, you are investing in trusting the
spaciousness of your awareness and your heart. How the real essence of
the experience of hate is the heart hating being squashed by all the
Ordered three books about Fender basses from Amazon for my kids' dad's birthday
Had a long conversation with Modgala who is at our French retreat centre - I was due to travel there on July 3rd but certainly won't make it then and may not make it at all. With luck I'll manage to see her while she is in the U.K. during most of July and August
Ordered groceries on-line, to be delivered tomorrow afternoon
Planned what I'll cook for tomorrow night. Sally, one of the Amida Newcastle group, is leaving on Wednesday to be an Amida Volunteer so we are having a Sangha meal together to say Bon Voyage to her
Started the Great Clearing of the back garden which will be continued tomorrow. I trimmed the big bamboo so it's possible to get past it to the garage. I dug up some of the Alchemilla which have freely seeded between the paving slabs and transplanted them to the front and began to cut back some of the rampant Russian Vine which is threatening World Domination
Wrote to a friend in Australia, whom I hoped to see in France, inviting him to visit us here on his way to or from
that no matter how sincere one's intention to be attentive and aware,
the mind rebels against such instructions and races off to indulge in
all manner of distractions, memories and fantasies....The comforting
illusion of personal coherence and continuity is ripped away to expose
only fragmentary islands of consciousness separated by yawning gulfs of
unawareness....The first step in this practice of mindful awareness is
Such self-acceptance, however, does not
operate in an ethical vacuum, where no moral assessment is made of one's
emotional states. The training in mindful awareness is part of a
Buddhist path with values and goals. Emotional states are evaluated
according to whether they increase or decrease the potential for
suffering. If an emotion, such as hatred or envy, is judged to be
destructive, then it is simply recognized as such. It is neither
expressed through violent thoughts, words or deeds, nor is it suppressed
or denied as incompatiable with a "spiritual" life.
In seeing it
for what it is--a transient emotional state--one mindfully observes it
follow its own nature: to arise, abide for a while, and then pass away.
~ Stephen Batchelor, in The Awakening of the
West from Everyday Mind, edited by Jean Smith, a
Talking on the phone to my daughter, getting the low-down on the holiday at CenterParcs that I would have been on with both children and all four granddaughters, except that I'm....
Still looking after Peter who is only recovering very slowly from the concussion after his fall
Changing bedlinen and doing some serious bedroom cleaning
Shopping at Asda, which is the nearest supermarket, for the things we've run out of before the next Sainsburys delivery. Peter can only eat small amounts and fancies avocados, cheese, eggs and fruit - I found beautiful cherries, melon, peaches, nectarines
And we had a fresh veggie pizza for lunch - not much cooking involved there
Reading the Independent, the Guardian and the Times
Watching Doctor Who
Catching up with a little more of the e-mail overload and the 1000+ Bloglines entries that arrived while I was in Kephalonia
And now - it's time for bed, where I will read and listen to something soothing on the iPod for a while
...is a Japanese name meaning 'small lily'. This is because this blog is for the small, personal and inconsequential in my life as opposed to my main blog, lotusinthemud, which is mainly Buddhist, activist, political, 'green' in content. I also have or share other blogs - for news and information on my local Buddhist group, for teaching and for those of us who are leading groups, are Buddhist ministers, are organising the next conference or are members of my order. I'm finding this such a great medium and have to thank my son, Simon, whose blog seems to have ground to a halt....
I'm glad to have this new blog - I'd been thinking for some time that I'd like something more casual. I hope other members of my family and friends will take up invitations so we can keep in touch with each other, see each others' photos etc. more easily.
The latter is quite a bugbear - I'm not keen, to put it mildly, on having e-mail attachments sent to me. Simon, who is a 'code poet', has done a good job of educating me and even persuaded me to get an Apple Powerbook, which I love.
But, no matter how many times I tell people I don't like to open attachments, they still keep on coming into my inbox.
Sujatin, which is my Buddhist name, not my birth name. It was given to me by my teacher, David Brazier - whose Buddhist name is Dharmavidya - during a ceremony in July 2000 at our French retreat centre, when I was taking what are known as Bodhisattva vows.
I use both names, although I'd rather just use my Buddhist name. But my family aren't going to and my official documents use my birth name. When people ask who I am I don't always reply immediately, as I weigh up which name is appropriate. They must think it rather strange that I don't even know my own name.
'Sujatin' is Sanskrit. The 'su' part comes from the same root as 'sugar' - it means sweetness or bliss. 'jatin' is to do with birth. The circumstances around my actual birth were far from happy and have led to difficulties in my life. Now I have been given a blissful birth which has led to things being just as they are now.
I didn't know what my Buddhist name would be until I was told during the ceremony. There had been that slight apprehension - perhaps I wouldn't like it. But I do and, as I said, prefer it to my birth name, which I associate with some less happy times.
But I imagine this would apply equally well to anything else you undertake:
How to feel miserable as an artist
(or, what not to do - underline any that currently
1. Constantly compare yourself to other artists.
2. Talk to your family about what you do and expect
them to cheer you on.
3. Base the success of your entire career on one
4. Stick with what you know.
5. Undervalue your expertise.
6. Let money dictate what you do.
7. Bow to societal pressures.
8. Only do work that your family would love.
9. Do whatever the client/customer/gallery
10. Set unachievable/overwhelming goals to be
accomplished by tomorrow.
I'm going to be looking for ground cover plants, apart from all the Alchemilla Mollis I can transplant from the back garden, where it is spreading prolifically - so I'm off to bed with the wonderful Monty
I'm a Minister with Amida Shu, a Pureland Buddhist Order. Now semi-retired, I teach on-line and hold Pureland Buddhist sangha gatherings in Perth, Scotland. This site is mainly Buddhist in content. I share the teachings of the Head of our Order, Dharmavidya David Brazier